This seems to be a question that when you reach a certain age, you have been dating the same person for said amount of time that people feel they need to ask you. And i used to answer: "when he asks me, whenever that is..... " I really cannot even count the amount of times this has been asked to me, and one would think it is awkward enough when you are alone and some stranger you barely knows asks you this dreaded question, but even more when you are standing with your partner in crime.
What does one say really?
I personally feel like just breaking down and crying and being like I have no angry word here clue!! Why must people try to put me into that box. Sure I really want to get married, i dream of the perfect wedding, the dress, the colours, the meal, the people, the first dance, the music, the location. But most importantly it is having that perfectly imperfect person standing at the alter waiting for me to walk down and meet him to say I will.
So I don't say anything, what am I to say? I feel it is the duty of him to propose this new union. Sure I can easily do it, I'm a new age girl, but I have this dream that it will be a perfect moment and then all questions will be suddenly answered. Pretty sure that doesn't actually happen. Rather one question multiples into a million new questions that you didn't even know existed. Now people want to know a date, where it is going to happen, and so on. And then when you finally clean up that mess, it starts again. So when are you having babies? The never ending questions.... and I so badly want to be in the middle of it all!
For now I will be in this phase of questions...I hope for not too much longer. It is a good thing I have this patient-ness about me. It is like ketchup, you have to wait for a good thing to happen, and it is not easy. You will have to overcome yourself, himself and others to get to where you want to be. It is something you can't just go into thinking there is an easy way in or out. The harder things are...the challenges you must see and get over....the better I think it will be for the outcome. Oh for an easy relationship!
Love is hard.
If it was easy it wouldn't mean nothing.....
What does one say really?
I personally feel like just breaking down and crying and being like I have no angry word here clue!! Why must people try to put me into that box. Sure I really want to get married, i dream of the perfect wedding, the dress, the colours, the meal, the people, the first dance, the music, the location. But most importantly it is having that perfectly imperfect person standing at the alter waiting for me to walk down and meet him to say I will.
So I don't say anything, what am I to say? I feel it is the duty of him to propose this new union. Sure I can easily do it, I'm a new age girl, but I have this dream that it will be a perfect moment and then all questions will be suddenly answered. Pretty sure that doesn't actually happen. Rather one question multiples into a million new questions that you didn't even know existed. Now people want to know a date, where it is going to happen, and so on. And then when you finally clean up that mess, it starts again. So when are you having babies? The never ending questions.... and I so badly want to be in the middle of it all!
For now I will be in this phase of questions...I hope for not too much longer. It is a good thing I have this patient-ness about me. It is like ketchup, you have to wait for a good thing to happen, and it is not easy. You will have to overcome yourself, himself and others to get to where you want to be. It is something you can't just go into thinking there is an easy way in or out. The harder things are...the challenges you must see and get over....the better I think it will be for the outcome. Oh for an easy relationship!
Love is hard.
If it was easy it wouldn't mean nothing.....
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