The Other Shoe

Or maybe you can't have your cake and eat it too, or nothing is as it seems and is generally far from perfect, drops.

I will be happy to see a new month, a new month to hopefully start feeling less defeated.

I'm not even sure how to feel at this point, I just feel like a part of my life is not the life it once was? It is now a whole lot more complicated, and I'm not seeing how it will become less complicated. Right now the tunnel is very dark, I don't have a lot information and I'm freaking out.

I've been told to not over think it, but the people that are telling me this know I am doing it as they are saying it. So for now, I will attempt to think of something else, try to eat something and keep my eyes dry.

Running

I jumped into running, with training for a half marathon in the summer of 2009. I didn't run really before, I just thought it would be cheap and easy. I could step outside my house, with my shoes on and go. It would also make me feel like I am a good dog owner, as the dogs would get exercise, I would have a running partner, it is win win! So it is now 2011, I have done three half marathons, and I think I finally have it figured out. I can't do it alone. Well that is not entirely true, I can do it alone but to be my best at it, I need more!
Insert new running buddy.
So I have started running again, after taking two months off to get fat. I have found a girl my age, that also wants to run, train and have someone to do it with them. We have been at it for a week, and I think it might be a match made in the running heavens. I'm so excited to have someone to talk to, that has similar goals as me and wants to train for multiple races this year.
So look out 2011, it is the year of killing my old running times and setting some new ones!

Causes

Do you ever feel bombarded with groups wanting the support of some cause? I feel that way, there just seems to be so many people trying to reinvent the wheel out there. Am I to like every one that wants me to support a disease, help the hungry, help the flood victims, help the animals... Not like there could be come really quick and easy solution to these problems? Isn't that what we are always looking for anyways? I have problem X and want solution Z, and I want it to be the simplest, quickest solution, with no regard to the consequences!

Why don't we all just work together, do we not all have the same goals? Is your mission statement not the same as mine? Do you also want to do good for this cause?

And then there are the causes that take advantage of us that don't take the time to see if they are in fact who they say they are and helping who needs to be helped! They only cause more suffering and another excuse to have a cause to put these people in their place! The cycle then can continue.

I don't feel the need to jump on every bandwagon to support what is going on around the world, as some are not actually doing any good. It is generally someone that feels very passionately about it, but can't see anything beyond what they are fighting for and what the consequences could be in the end. I would rather think for myself and not have a mob of people sway me into their mass.

Is one alone all that bad?

Do a little research, put a little effort into what you believe in, because if it is what you believe in, is it not worth more than clicking a button with a thumbs up!?